What do we fill our days with?

Do you ever stop at the end of the day and wonder,

"What did I do today?"

No, no I'm not jumping on some stupid bandwagon of saying being a stay-at-home-mom isn't the same as working. Not at all, it's freaking ridiculously hard, unrelenting work. Managing a household is intensely hands-on work...but for the most part, it's monotonous, repetitive ridiculous work. I thought this today as I put ALL of my Littles' clothes back in the dresser for the 2nd time. Baby Little is walking now, and at every opportunity loves to pull each piece of clothing out. Today it happened right after I spent an hour folding the clothes and putting them away. I spend my day cleaning up a mess, only to have them make another, and then cleaning up that one. Dishes and Laundry, need I say more?

Lately I've been spending a lot of time and energy planning Baby Little's first birthday. I spend a lot of time fixing and painting things around the house. I still waste a lot of time on Facebook. I watch too much Netflix, usually while I clean or nurse.

I do A LOT in a day, but at the end, I find myself sitting alone in the living room with all of my house in bed feeling like, "What did I do today?"

For some reason, this thought makes me feel incredibly lonely.
When my husband came in the room for a minute before he went to sleep and went over all of the things that he needed help getting done tomorrow and our plans for the rest of the week, that made me feel Lonely, too.

I've been sitting here stewing, trying to figure out why. I think it's because I feel like modern life is So Busy. Just Busy. It's the idea, I guess, of quantity over quality. We fill our days with the mundane musts, a billion little projects, and work work work. As I've illustrated before, I am a Dixie Chicks fan. One of the songs says something like,
"We run on the treadmill, keep slaving away, till there's no time for talking about troubles in mind, and the doors are all closed between your heart and mine. More Love, I can hear our hearts crying, more love."

And this is why I think having such a "busy" modern day is still lonely. We spend our time in our own homes or our own jobs just filling out the Checklist of things to be done. We grow addicted to the virtual reality of TV shows and social networks, because we want to feel apart of a community. But there is no substitute for face time. No remedy for the fact that relationships are like plants, and need to bask in the sunshine of quality time together. There is no fixing the fact that we need Each Other.